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Sorry it has taken so long for me to post an update! It has been a busy few weeks and I just haven’t had time to sit down and write. So first of all, my appointment with the specialist went well, but Nate and I will not be going back to him. He was incredibly kind and he spent a lot of time with us but he ultimately suggested we let go of our dreams to have children naturally. He said it is entirely our choice, but that my body is not equipped to carry a full term pregnancy. He gave us a packet on surrogacy and encouraged us to look into it because my chances of miscarrying or having a stillbirth are much higher then the typical woman. I appreciate the information he gave us, however Nate and I are not ready to give up yet. We understand that there is the possibility of losing more children and if that does happen, it will be heartbreaking, but I will still love and cherish each child we are blessed with regardless of how long I am able to carry.
            As soon as I got back to Rexburg I contacted my doctor's office and spoke with two of the nurses at the office. I told them how discouraging the appointment was and how frustrated I was to be told to be told that I was not the best choice for our future children. They spoke with my doctor and they all agreed that we had not yet exhausted all of our options. They referred me to a doctor in Georgia that has dealt with much riskier cases then mine.  I have my first phone consultation with this new doctor on July 22nd and I have an MRI tomorrow to determine whether or not surgery is the best option. My doctor in Rexburg and the doctor in Georgia are optimistic that I will be able to have a successful pregnancy, so I am excited to see what the doctor in Georgia has to say!
             In other news, Nate took the MCAT last month and we should be hearing back about his results in the next week or so. We are currently in the process of choosing medical schools that we will apply to and I can’t wait to see where we end up! I sure love my man and all that he does to take care of our little family. I really couldn’t ask for a better hubby to spend eternity with. J

How could I not be head over heels in love with this hunk?!

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