One Day At A Time

I have been meaning to write a post for the past few weeks, but between starting a new job and life in general, I just haven’t been able to get around to it until now. First off, Nate and I would like to thank everyone that participated in our Love Walk for Hunter’s first birthday. We were both overwhelmed at the amount of people who participated with us and incredibly grateful that we had so many celebrating the life of our son. I can’t tell you how much it means to know that our angel is being remembered and that he is so very loved. I knew Hunter’s birthday was going to be a difficult day. As his birthday drew nearer, my emotions were all over the place. I felt a great deal of sadness that it had already been a year since I first met and held my baby. Nate and I had decided that we would not dwell on all of the time that we did not have with him, but rather celebrate the time that we did have with him and the joy that he brought into our lives. Hunter’s birthday began with mu

The past two months have been a stressful blur. I have met with two specialists and my doctor here in Rexburg several times and it has been decided that I will be having a partial hysterectomy on September 8th. My doctor will go in and remove the side of the uterus that did not fully develop and the fallopian tube to prevent pregnancy occurring on that side. It should also help with preventing endometriosis in the future. I will then begin treatment to get rid of the remainder of the endometriosis.  Both of our meetings with the specialists were a little discouraging. They both agreed that surrogacy would be the safest option for us. I understand why they are saying that it is the safest option for both me and our future babies, but it is so hard to give up on something that I have literally wanted for as long as I can remember. Nate and I are torn on which direction to go. If we choose to try and get pregnant again, we have to accept that there is greater chance of another loss th

            I was recently on a panel to answer questions about miscarriages, infertility and my journey in general. I have since had people come up to me as well as message me with other questions, so I decided to write a post about these because I'm sure others have similar questions as well. I really appreciate it when people aren't afraid to ask about what Nate and I have gone through to get a better understanding of our journey and what others may be experiencing. I am more than happy to answer any question I can so please feel free to message me or ask me in person about anything to do with our journey. I have made it a goal to raise awareness about pregnancy loss and I hope that this post helps.            I think the most frequently asked question that Nate and I get is, "how do you do keep going?" Well, the alternative is dying and that’s not really an option, so we just continue on by taking it one day at a time. I would be

Sorry it has taken so long for me to post an update! It has been a busy few weeks and I just haven’t had time to sit down and write. So first of all, my appointment with the specialist went well, but Nate and I will not be going back to him. He was incredibly kind and he spent a lot of time with us but he ultimately suggested we let go of our dreams to have children naturally. He said it is entirely our choice, but that my body is not equipped to carry a full term pregnancy. He gave us a packet on surrogacy and encouraged us to look into it because my chances of miscarrying or having a stillbirth are much higher then the typical woman. I appreciate the information he gave us, however Nate and I are not ready to give up yet. We understand that there is the possibility of losing more children and if that does happen, it will be heartbreaking, but I will still love and cherish each child we are blessed with regardless of how long I am able to carry.             As soo